It seems that, once again, God has altered fate as it has for me.
Looks like from where it's going right now, I won't be able to pursue a career in Media.
Instead, it's more of me picking up one of my discarded childhood dreams from the old recycle bin and fixing it up now. Really? I never would've thought things would turn out like this.


Back during the days, when we were still young kids, dumb and naive, I kept a dream. A dream amongst many other dreams, I never thought this would be one I would ultimately get.
Now that my fate is set, it seems that the only way I will survive in this world is to give my all and live this long-forgotten dream.
To be a well-renowned Interior Designer and Wedding Planner.


What a pity though. Such a design-based course takes no heed to my linguistic skills. Then again, there are always CCAs to polish and showcase these supposedly "unwanted" feats.
And on a positive note, at least I need not travel to and fro from Pasir Ris all the way to Ngee Ann Polytechnic in Clementi every single day. That saves me the trouble of waking up early, sacrificing CCA experiences due to time constraints and also the amount of time wasted each day which could be used to do much more constructive activities.
Yup. And I sure as hell am certain that along the way, I can finally brush up my underutilized Artistic streaks and at the same time, obtain skills in home design.


Friends, I have already made up my mind. All of you may have looked at me once like all I was interested in was Media, the Publicity and all. You're right about that to a certain extent. I do like all that shit but I'm not just confined to those.
What you all don't see is that I foster secret ambitions to pursue much more greater things. I remained constrained to pursuing Media and Media ONLY because above all, I thought it had been the most attainable, the most sensible and most importantly, the most beneficial.


You don't know how I am subject to a diverse range of ambitions; as virtually impossible as becoming a doctor to becoming an artist. Really, there are a lot of things, perhaps millions of them, that I want to do in this world.
This further hardens the decisions I make. It's always in the mindset of "I want to do this, but I still want to do that... And this too!". But then again, never mind all that.
I guess that right now, at this point in time, there isn't any time for regret and disappointment any more. God has set me on my destined path. I shall have to accept fate as it is.
Alhamdulillah, thanks to him, I wouldn't have gotten this far.


Even though I'm not able to utilize and showcase my dual forte here, it is already good to be able to at least apply one of them in this field of excellence. And yes, I'm being very optimistic towards things as they are now.
Like what Hidayat mentioned in our short but brief conversation,

"Life's a shit sandwich, and everyone's got to take a bite even if just once."

Make the best out of what you've got, let passion motivate you and success inspire you. In the end, I guess shifting all this Media shiz aside is pretty worth it.
That doesn't mean I'm discarding them forever, though. I'll retrieve it back when the time is right. I still believe that even though my ambitions are distance apart, I will find a way to balance out how I want to live life.

"Complacency is always the enemy"

Yours truly,
your neighbourhood Wedding Planner/Media Enthusiast:

Firdaus Eden


p/s watching PCK to sublimate all my frustrations, the Rosie fart scenes are really ftw. Hahahaha this kept me entertained and distracted amidst all the devastation.