Remember last year's resolutions?
Well, for one, I am very proud to announce that I have fulfilled six out of eight I wrote down.
(what a bummer i didn't give it my best for my 'o's. i guess that academically, i'm just not driven)

But yeah, I guess I'm pretty much glad that the year is all over and done with.
From now onwards, everyone will be taking one giant leap ahead. 10 days from now, the results that would ultimately determine our absolute futures will be announced.
I'm half-psyched out and half- fearful, actually.
I know that I performed at the peak of my ability for the two language subjects and perhaps for Math, but the other subjects could have undergone further improvement.
Right now, with all the free time I have, I just wish that I could shift all this time back to the pre-'O' level period, and utilize it wisely.
...but oh wait, it's hopeless. I guess I'm just too distracted.


I'm thinking right now; provided I do not perform well for my 'O' levels, shall I just enroll in ITE and retake private 'O's? Retake it in Greenview? Or just move on to a course that I might not even like?
But really, that would be a major disappointment. I've got cousins who've enrolled in top-class institutions like Victoria School, VJC, NUS, some have even obtained their Master's.
I'm always the subject of comparison between them by my mom. But seriously, it's not fair. I was born with only half the intelligence. My dad's family is well-educated, and my mom's family is averagely-educated (or just lazy).
So I guess I'm the rounded up person. I have a little of my maternal wild child traits, often being ostracized by my paternal cousins because they're the "easygoing, sit-at-one-corner but still study and are damn smart" kind.
And having my paternal intelligence, I guess I'm looked up to in my maternal family. But I'm also ostracized in the sense that I'm not as wild-child or talkative like the rest of my maternal cousins.
All that and yada yada. I'm sure all of you get what I mean.


But despite all that, I still believe that even a degree can be equivalent to NOTHING when there is no passion in whatever you do.
Let's face it -- even if you're damn smart, without passion you'll go nowhere.
I guess that my dad is my motivation. He's smart but lazy (like me), and back in the old days he struggled through his Poly years and graduated with a Diploma I think (?)
As far as I know, he has no degree.
Yet where has his passion for computers got him now? He may not be as rich as Bill Gates but I'm just grateful that he's able to raise a well-to-do family.
(fyi we're not as rich as you people think we are. maybe it's because we don't own a car and i so happen to be the only child; that's why i may seem like i've got so much money but the fact is, i'm like every one of you out there -- just a middle-class family living in urban singapore. so stop claiming i'm rich as if you know about my family's financial stability)